HIDDEN LIGHT
May 2008

On Sunday, May 4, 2008 the Venus/Moon conjunction at 5E Taurus 16' occurs just before the New Moon on Monday. Venus rules the New Moon and the Moon is exalted in Taurus. Venus, the brightest planet and the Moon the brightest light in the night sky hide behind the Sun planning various delights for our hearts and souls. During this time of meditation in the dark of the Moon we could be thinking about how we will consider our relationships with others, what we value, and how we can use the resources to meet and merge with others. What old values have been dictating your life that no longer serve you in the name of love? What old values need to be resurrected so you can grow in light and love? It’s now or never.

Venus and the Moon are in a separating trine with Saturn in Virgo and Pluto in Capricorn. The Fairchild Symbol for Saturn is A table set for a great feast with a crimson table cloth. This is a great month to focus on the love and beauty in our lives. The symbol for the Moon and Venus is A woman sends her five children to college on the inheritance she received from her parents. The Moon rules memory. We inherited values and learned behaviors from our parents. Some memories are filled with love and others with sorrow. Our memories teach us about how we became the person we are now.

Now is a time for transformation. Venus the goddess of love and beauty focuses the energy of love. The Moon helps us recall those times in our lives when we nurtured things that were good and beautiful and valued. The energy of these two planets form the underlying force for changes that we will work on for the next several months. In this chart Jupiter and Pluto are in Capricorn where we are asked to restructure ourselves at a root level. Neptune in Aquarius wants us to dream creatively. Mercury asks us to think about what we believe.

By the end of the month - 4 planets will be retrograde. Mercury in Gemini will ask us to sort through memories and glean information which can help us grow in wisdom Jupiter in Capricorn gives us until September to review how we manage growth and expansion. What new structures are we trying to build? Neptune retrograde in Aquarius until the beginning of November allows us to review our visions. Are they in keeping with the structures we are trying to build? In what ways are they unique? Who is included or excluded in our plans? Pluto began its backward motion in Capricorn and moves into Sagittarius until September. He wants to make sure we clean out the last old ideas and belief systems before he empowers us to rebuild our lives.

CYCLES OF THE 12TH HOUSE OR
BEGINNINGS AND ENDINGS

The 12th house is the ending of a cycle. It's natural sign, Pisces, is the fulfillment of all the other signs. In the Northern Hemisphere Pisces ends the winter and stands at the beginning of spring. The stored food harvested from the previous summer has been used. On a spiritual level the inner light of the Winter Solstice has enabled us to connect with our God, however we conceive him/her. With Pisces on the 12th we are afraid that we may not have fulfilled all our hopes, wishes and dreams. And of course we probable haven't. But that's o.k.

The 12th house is the place where we face our angels (successes) and our ghosts (failures). A new cycle cannot begin unless we acknowledge and deal with what we have and have not done; unless we have taken responsibility for 12th house fears and mustered the courage to dismiss the ghosts of past.

Jupiter, the Classical Ruler of Pisces reveals the rewards of our hard work as well as how we have done things to excess. Neptune, the Modern Ruler exposes our illusions and delusions. But Neptune also reconnects us to our dreams. Pluto, the esoteric ruler urges us to get rid of our psychological garbage while at the same time challenging us to transform into the person who can manifest the Neptune dreams. Aries on the 1st house gives us a new opportunity to start over. If we watch the planets transit our 12th house-the Moon each month, the Sun each year, Mars every two years and so forth we see that we have many chances to review what we have done, integrate the positive things and expose the negatives. Each time a planet transits the 12th house there is ending, dying, giving up-just as winter ends the life of plants in the fall and winter. But there are also-new beginnings-seeds that will sprout in the light and warmth of spring. In the 12th house there are angels from whom we receive the gift of love and light and there are ghosts of the past whom we fear.

Daily the Sun rises on the cusp of the 1st house and moves into the 12th illuminating it as it moves towards the zenith. Each day is a chance to receive a gift from the spiritual world so that we can face our 12th house fears and live the new day with courage, in light and love.

This process ". . . is an act of spiritual will. One takes one's loss and one goes on anew, knowing full well that some day, in some place, the ghosts dismissed will be met again. But if, in the meantime, one has grown enough and established oneself at a higher level of consciousness and power, one will know better how to deal with the unfinished business." D. Rudhyar

The 12th house is the cave where the dragon dwells within. Or so we have been led to believe. But the most courageous thing we can do is to go on a quest to slay the dragon. However, if some of us are not into capital punishment we might want to consider how to change the dragon from a foe to a friend. Now this is a terrifying idea. And as long as we avoid facing the dragon he will continue to terrify us.

The 12th house is also a private place where we get in touch with our inner most self and our spiritual nature. It is the place of dreams, spiritual connections, and mental processes. It is a mysterious place where the unconscious is in control, where imagination runs wild, where there are no boundaries except those we impose on ourselves. It is also the place where we give unconditionally of ourselves in faith and hope and where we receive blessings from the universe if we are willing to be open and accept them.

Once a year the sun transits the 12th house. So what are some of our fears. Leo on the 12th house is fear of receiving love and being creative. With Virgo on the 1st we want to appear perfect and if we have not come to terms with allowing ourselves to be loved and giving our creative gift unconditionally, we are afraid we will not be perfect enough. Some pottery makers will often fire a pot with a hairline crack. The idea is that only God can create something perfect.

Virgo on the 12th is afraid of saying no, because we may not be fulfilling the perfect servant role of Virgo or we may be afraid of being too critical and thus alienate people. With Libra on the 1st we want to cultivate harmonious relationships. Libras who have not resolved our inner 12th house critical Virgo nature often wind up doing whatever is asked of us and thus give away our personal power.

Libra on the 12th fears other people's pain. Scorpio on the 1st wants to take charge of everyone's life so that we will be happy. To bring happiness and harmony to other people because we don't want them to experience pain, robs others of necessary experiences which they need in order to learn the lessons of life. We need to look to the universe for the wisdom and strength to step back and allow others to live their lives. One of our fears is the pain of our own weakness in not being able to resolve a problem that is not ours.

If we have Saturn retrograde in Pisces, let us take responsibility for having faith in our 12th house energy and setting our own boundaries. This is difficult especially if we are not comfortable with Saturn. If we have Saturn in the 8th house then we want to work on our power/control issues. With Cancer on the 12th we are not comfortable unless we are in control of our emotions. This one is a real challenge because we probably feel like we are out of control, we don't know where the boundaries are, and we don't want to appear like a raving maniac. With Cancer on the 12th our emotions could get out of control. What to do? The moon is the ruler of Cancer. Take time to read a self-help book, mediate, pray, or take time to be alone and reflect on situations. This will give us the opportunity to take control of our emotions, and turn things around so that we can share our power but not in an overbearing, controlling manner.

Trust the 12th house (the connection with the universe) to provide you with the key to your spiritual (personal) power.